Its been a while...

I haven't been on my blog in a while, not that it currently matters as no one else is reading this but me. However, as I believe at some point in my life I'd like to look back and see what exactly I did with my life, I figure I should write it down.

In fact, I've been thinking about just that...what am I doing with my life? I know, I know...boring pre-mid-life crisis topic, but nonetheless, I think its an important question to ask. When I grow old and die (or young and die, eek!), what will people remember me for? Being a "good" friend, being a "good" daughter, being a "good" massage therapist...I mean all these are "good", but Einstein wasn't just "good". Marie Curie wasn't just "good". Newton, "good"? Ah, no, GREAT!

So what is it exactly that I'm doing with my life. What should I be doing? I imagine that there must be something out there that I'm EXCELLENT at, but what? I think I believe in destiny, so what's the plan? Do I just wait around and see if destiny finds me? Or do I go out and search until I drop?

As always, the answer is, of course, something in the middle. Which, as usual, bugs the crap out of me. How the hell are you supposed to know what to do? There's a lot to "something in the middle". Sit around MOST of the time, but keep your eyes open? Or search, but only until you're pooped? ARGGGHHH...

Perhaps this is my claim to fame...being the most confused person on Earth. It seems I excel at this quite easily.

Ugh.